Sunday, January 3, 2016

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Sunday, December 13, 2015

t•w•e•n•t•y

December 14, 1995. 20 years ago today. 

20 years living in this beautiful world, 20 (and many, many more) things to be thankful for and absolutely in love with...
1. A savior who loves me extravagantly, who sees me and knows me. Nothing is too big or too small, and His beauty astounds me day by day. 
2. My parents, who are the two most wonderful people on the planet. They love wholeheartedly, they seek wisdom, they offer grace, and they keep their hearts young. They have given me tenfold of what I have needed. 
3. The rest of my family- blood or bond. I am surrounded by genuine support and endless joy. We are large in number and larger in love. 
4. Justin- My best friend since I was 13. The person who knows everything about me and still wants to hang around ☺️ he makes me laugh like no one else, and he conquers life admirably. 
5. Madi- My person. My 3am phone call, my 80's glam band mate, my personal cheerleader, and someone I can always find in my corner. So thankful for her infectious smile and her adventurous spirit.
6. Baylor University, the place that has become my beautiful, wonderful home. This college and the people who brought me here hold an irreplaceable spot in my heart. I am continually amazed that I have the opportunity to be here. I am challenged, stretched, and nourished here.
7. "Sextuplets"- the six people who make staying up all night worth it. 😂 Calleigh, Joi, Kristyn, Heather, Brentyn, and Justin have given me a family at college. My life is weird and joyful because of them, and I wouldn't have it any other way. 
8. Kat- meeting your roommate on move in day is scary. Living with strangers is hard. Kat has become such a wonderful friend to laugh with, be encouraged by, and vent with. She is such a blessing, and I'm so happy that we ended up living together! 
9. Sunsets- One of my most favorite things about this world. The beauty of a sky painted vibrant, luminous colors takes my breath away. 
10. Mountains- I could spend my life hiking trails alongside streams, cliffs, and waterfalls, surrounded by snow-capped or lush green peaks. There is restorative tranquility in these places. 
11. Kids/babies- Jesus calls us to live our lives with the faith and joy that precious little ones possess. I am so excited to spend my life loving these sweet, tiny humans.
12. Music- one of the biggest parts of my life. Whether I need to sing, dance, cry, laugh, rest, or be wild, there is music for that. 
13. Puppies- because, come on, who doesn't absolutely adore them.
14. Privileges- I have always had what I have needed. Never have I been left behind or forgotten. There are so many people in this world who are treated horribly, so many lives I could have easily lived. I am unfathomably humbled to be on the end that has the means to cherish, protect, and care for these people. 
15. Words- they're kind of my thing. ☺️ from languages to poetry, we are beautifully connected by words.
16. Pathways UMC- this little country church has awakened something in my family that had previously been hushed. I find so much joy in sitting among my parents, sibling, aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents while we worship and learn together. 
17. Technology- being 500 miles from home is hard. Thankfully, I can hear voices, see faces, and send messages instantly to my loved ones back home.
18. Failure- I can be a sore loser and I struggle with chasing perfection. There is no wisdom in that, though, and I am thankful to be learning that failure can do just as much good in my life as success. 
19. Christmas!!!!!! My absolute favorite time of the year. I shamelessly begin obsessing around October. There is pure magic in everyone coming home, being unified, blessing others, and celebrating redemption. I adore it. 
20. Grace/forgiveness/mercy- how thankful I am that each day is a new one. I am thankful for today, a new age to grow and learn and love. A new year, soon, to experience life. I am amazed at these three things that are freely given to me each and every moment of the day. 

Here's to 20, and all of the big plans and small moments that will make it spectacular. 💕

-Thanks for reading! You can continue to follow my journey here. Prayers are always appreciated. Feel free to send me a prayer or some encouragement, too! Kelsey_Phipps@baylor.edu
 


"You can be sure that God will take care of everything you need, His generosity exceeding even yours in the glory that pours from Christ Jesus. Our God and Father abounds in glory that just pours out into eternity. Yes." -Philippians 4:19-20

Monday, November 16, 2015

Welcome to the river.

One month ago today, I sat in a chair in a tattoo shop and heard God very clearly ask me to trust Him, for real. To give everything over to Him and to have a patient, devoted heart. (You can read about that here.) I have spent this past month reminding myself of this. I didn't want my tattoo to simply be ink on my skin-- it has purpose, its story is beautiful and redeeming, and I want to always keep that redemption and beauty close to me. Yesterday, when I realized that today would be one month, I was frustrated. It has barely felt like a week since it all happened. I thought about that night, about the way God had spoken to me, and about what I had done with this first month.

  • I left a job that was destructive to me. I was making hardly any money, sometimes even owing more money than I made. It was taking one of the most joyful parts of my life and painting a very broken, negative picture of it. It was trapping me in lies about myself- inadequacy, to be specific. Leaving was hard, because I don't like the uncertainty of not having a job, but already, things are better.
  • I went home and saw my family and friends for the first time since August. Making the choice to spend fall break at home instead of going on a trip seemed easy at first, but on the long drive home, I worried that I was missing out on an experience. However, there was so much peace and rest at home. Being with my family was wonderful. It was simply joyous. I am so blessed to have so many people in my life who bring me closer to Jesus.
  • I walked away from destructive relationships. I am a giver, and I find joy in doing things for others. However, this sometimes means that I am not good at making boundaries, and I don't always recognize when I'm being taken advantage of-- instead, I take it on as my own inadequacy. I spent a long time feeling defeated and wondering how Jesus must see me, if the people around me saw me so negatively. Loving yourself enough to take a step back when people aren't treating you right is extremely hard, especially for me. I felt so guilty for standing up for myself, but my days are already brighter. I understand the beauty and worth that Jesus finds in me. I don't constantly worry that I'm not doing enough for my friends, because the company I keep is good, honest, and genuine. It is Christ-centered, and I walk away feeling encouraged and valued, instead of used and alone.
  • I sought help for a problem that has been hindering my life for years. For a while now, I have known that I struggle with anxiety. I never wanted to admit that it was bad enough to need help, but realizing that I can be freed from the chains it binds me in has been so freeing in itself that I can't imagine not seeking help for it. I'm so thankful to go to a university that offers so many resources for me to seek help and find peace. I am finding myself surrounded by the indescribable peace that Jesus brings. I am breathing deep, resting in quiet moments instead of worrying in them.
I am determined to find a home where I'm at. I am confident that I am exactly where I'm meant to be right now. That doesn't mean that I'm in this incredible place, just that I am where Jesus wants me to be. I can spend my time fighting it, trying on my own to fix things and find better places, or I can simply stop fighting and come and rest in Jesus' arms. I can choose to trust Him without borders, as the ink on my skin declares.

He will not forsake me for even a moment, He never leaves my side. He always finds beauty, joy, and worth in me. He holds me, He keeps me safe. He knows my steps before I take them. He is all-powerful, and He directs my path. He brings me peace in my darkest moments. I never walk alone, and I never walk into a path He does not already see. Not only does He know my heart's desires, He created them, and He cherishes them. He calls me "friend" and "daughter." He picks me up when I am weary, and He carries me when I cannot go on.

There are easy and hard days. Some days, there are far more questions than answers. But having spent this past month asking God where I needed to trust Him more has been so beneficial to me. I want to spend this next month living in absolute trust- doing my very best to give not just the biggest parts of my life to Him, but every single part. In the little moments where I am tempted to try and move on my own, I want to remember the wondrous beauty I encountered from giving over the big parts. I want to pursue wisdom and peace. I turn 20 in one month, and I want to start this first year of real adulthood being grounded in trust. I can't wait to see what God holds for me. There is new life for me.

I've been listening to Meredith Andrews while writing this, and currently, her song "The River" is playing. How fitting. I am sitting at the river, while Jesus is preparing me to dive in and be made whole. "Welcome to the river," He invites me, calling my name,  "come drink, come away, come find your very life. Welcome to the river of God, where your brokenness is washed away."


-Thanks for reading! You can continue to follow my journey here. Prayers are always appreciated. Feel free to send me a prayer or some encouragement, too! Kelsey_Phipps@baylor.edu
 


"You can be sure that God will take care of everything you need, His generosity exceeding even yours in the glory that pours from Christ Jesus. Our God and Father abounds in glory that just pours out into eternity. Yes." -Philippians 4:19-20


Monday, October 26, 2015

He loves me in the middle of a tattoo shop.

Hello friends! Wow, it's been way too long. I miss freshman year, when I had so much more time to write a blog. (: Sophomore year has been busy, but it has also been extremely formative. I am amazed at the brilliance of God surrounding me.

So, to start off, Friday night I ended up getting a tattoo! I've had the design in mind for over a year, but it has always been just a "someday" idea. Here's a pic:

 
 
"Trust without borders." It is a reminder, a declaration, and a promise. It comes from Hillsong United's "Oceans," a song that was deeply influential in my journey to Baylor. My mom and I usually cry when we hear it. (:
 
I certainly didn't intend to spend my Friday night getting a tattoo. In fact, recently, I had discarded this idea altogether- and I had discarded the song and the meaning behind it, and worst of all, God's plan and work in me. Sophomore year has brought new challenges. As much as I thought that it would be incredibly easy, since I survived freshman year, all new obstacles have shown themselves, spitting in my face and laughing at my weakness. Instead of holding tight to God while we faced them together, I hid away from them and from God. I stopped seeking the great adventure that I had longed for. I wanted to run towards it, but it felt so impossible. I felt so ashamed, like a failure, and convinced myself that I had ruined my chances at chasing my dreams and bringing them to reality.
 
Fear is a nasty monster. Comparison is the thief of joy. Loneliness is a deep pit. These are the three things that took the place of God in my heart. They pushed and shoved until they consumed me. I was doing the one thing I promised myself I wouldn't do- I was being weak. I was losing. I had spent all summer summoning courage and bravery, vowing to face each day at Baylor with a "can-do" attitude. I even bought a journal that had me write down one brave thing I did each day. That journal still only has two entries. It didn't take long at all for me to lose my own battle- I was so determined to be the absolute best version of myself that I had ever been. I couldn't handle the pressure, and I cracked.
 
I wanted to have the answers. I wanted to be on top of everything. I wanted to make fabulous grades, have a good job with a big paycheck, and be active in all of my extracurriculars. I wanted my relationship with Jesus to be rock-solid, unwavering, and absolutely beautiful. I refused to accept anything else. So when I came up short, I threw it all away. What was I thinking? I had never been anything like this. There was no way I could change it all now and be some amazing person who had her life together. People always make jokes about me being a "hot mess," and they aren't wrong. I am a mess. That's all I've ever been.
 
The past two weeks have been the hardest. I completely stopped listening to anything God might be saying to me, or showing me. I couldn't bring myself to face Him. I would only make empty promises that would unravel before I could finish making them. There was so much shame and guilt surrounding me. Then I began to worry about facing my family; what would they say? You could see the failure all over my face, like there was a sign taped there: "this idiot never gets it right."
 
The sign became a list: "Her grades are laughable, she has no real friends, and her paycheck doesn't even last three days. She hasn't slept in three days. She failed a neuroscience test. Her friends think she's crazy. She can only work 12 hours a week. She hasn't showered in two days."
 
The list shouted its contents in my face everywhere I went. When I spoke, it shouted over me. When I was silent, it whispered in my ear, feeding itself into my heart. By Wednesday of last week, I was so far off from God that even listening to the worship music that usually renews my soul could only make me feel disappointed.
 
Then, Friday night, I was sitting in a tattoo shop with a friend. I was there only for moral support. When we walked into the shop, though, I felt different. It felt familiar, for some unknown reason. As we signed her in and waited for her turn, I could only concentrate on how odd this feeling was. I opened the folder on my phone where the tattoo design was saved, and looked at it. I had gone to a few shops at home to have it priced, and they had all said at least $100. I had about $50 to spend that night. After my friends said I should get the tattoo, I walked up to the front and asked them to price it. I still had no intention of actually going through with it. There was no way I could afford it, and even then, I wasn't even sure I believed in its significance anymore. Then I heard the man behind the counter say "$45." I thanked him and walked away. I ended up going into the bathroom, almost panicking at the thought of this tattoo. Why was I even considering this???
 
 It felt crazy. But at the same time, it felt right. I felt peaceful. It was like I was doing this no matter how I really felt about it. Why? What the hell had gotten into me? I couldn't just put permanent ink on my skin if the message had turned from a song in my heart to a reminder of my failure. But I left the bathroom, walked back up to the desk, signed my papers, paid my $45, and sat back down to wait my turn. Then I walked back to the room, told the artist where I wanted it, and sat in the chair. I got the tattoo. It hardly hurt, but I freaked out nonetheless. This was insane. There was no going back. But later on, when I was lying in bed, staring at a picture of the words now permanently a part of me, the presence of God was overwhelming. I was consumed not with fear, or regret, but with peace and love. It was a beautiful reassurance that this is what it took for God to get my attention. And that may sound crazy- a tattoo as a form of redemption? But I strongly believe that it is.
 
This redemption has reminded me of the truth- that I fail because I attempt on my own. That I do not have to bring anything to the table except trust. God works it all out for me, I only have to be still and listen. My dad and I were talking a few nights ago, and he told me "I truly believe that you are right where you're supposed to be right now. Not just your physical location, but spiritually, and emotionally, too. You have a lot more questions than answers, and the questions are questions of maturity. I know that the answers are their way. Keep allowing yourself to be open, open to new and different things. Big things, big challenges, and big adventures. This is the time to listen without anticipating what He's saying. Without 'interrupting' what He's telling you. Make Him speak loud and clear. Listen quietly and carefully, and yet aggressively. Don't sell yourself short, that's really only selling Him short. Be careful not to think or say 'I can't' but instead, 'I will.'" WOW. What incredible wisdom. He's the best.
 
Ultimately, I know that the dreams and desires of my heart were placed there by God when I was created. I know that each and every day of my life has been formative in some way to further the plan and the calling that has been placed on my life. It is so easy to get caught up in trying to do it all by myself- thinking that I know more than God, that I can do it on my own... Sometimes even that I can do it better my way. But all of those attempts fall to the ground, and I am always left cleaning up the mess. Thankfully, God never steps away from me... never even moves an inch. In all of my wandering, all of my refusal to open my heart and come sit at the table, He is there. When I convince myself that I am not worthy of a seat at the table- that I am unworthy of love, grace, and acceptance, God is already working around me, preparing me for whatever comes next.
 
It reminds me of Jesus asking Peter to step out of the boat. Peter is terrified, and tells Jesus he cannot do it. The whole point Jesus is making is, "I know you can't. But I can. And if I say that you can, it will be done." We can't do it alone. We have to get out of the boat with the mindset of letting Jesus take care of things, or we will drown.
 
How beautiful it is to have a Savior who tears down my walls and leads me to beautiful places. My hope, my peace, my strength, my trust is in Him, and it is a love without end, a journey that knows no borders. He loves so perfectly. His love stretches beyond my wildest dreams. He is steadfast and unwavering. He is all-powerful, and He loves me at my darkest. I would so much rather spend my life struggling and trusting in God than struggling all by myself. I will never be perfect. There will be times like this for the rest of my life, when I try to do things on my own, and lose sight of the truth. But The Truth never loses sight of me. Hallelujah. I am so in awe of the extravagant love that died for me, that lives for me, and that carries me through every day of my life. What a good, good father.
 
 
"You called me out upon the waters. The great unknown, where feet may fail. And there I find you in the mystery... In oceans deep, my faith may fail. But I will call upon your name, and keep my eyes above the waves. When oceans rise, my soul will rest in your embrace; for I am yours, and you are mine. Your grace abounds in deepest waters. Your sovereign hand will be my guide. Though feet may fail and fear surrounds me, you've never changed, and you won't start now. Spirit, lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior." -Oceans, Hillsong United
 
 
 
 
-Thanks for reading! You can continue to follow my journey here. Prayers are always appreciated. Feel free to send me a prayer or some encouragement, too! Kelsey_Phipps@baylor.edu
 

"You can be sure that God will take care of everything you need, His generosity exceeding even yours in the glory that pours from Christ Jesus. Our God and Father abounds in glory that just pours out into eternity. Yes." -Philippians 4:19-20
 
 


Friday, October 9, 2015

Why I Whole-Heartedly Believe in Greek Life

This was intended to be an open letter to anyone who has ever looked at a girl in a sorority and thought less of her based on that fact alone, but I do not believe addressing those people is worth my time. Instead...

This is for every girl, including myself, who has heard the words "sorostitute," "vapid," "skin-deep," "daddy's girl," "rich bitch," or any of the other hundreds of things that are negatively spat at the girls of Greek life. To those girls:

never listen to a single word of it. Never, for one second, let it enter any part of your mind. Whether the words are heard in passing, in a conversation next to you, read online, or spoken directly to you. Do not let the misunderstanding, jealousy, stereotyping, and ignorance of others hold you back or bring you down even an inch.

Instead, hold your head high. You are seated among incredible women. Let's meet a few of them:

Condoleezza Rice: Alpha Chi Omega, University of Denver
-66th United States Secretary of State
-First female African-American Secretary of State
-Second African-American Secretary of State
-Second female Secretary of State
-First female to serve as National Secretary Advisor (Under George W. Bush, first term)
-Professor of political science, Stanford University
-Served on the National Security Council as the Soviet and Eastern Europe Affairs Advisor (George H.W. Bush)
-Pioneered the policy of Transformational Diplomacy

This isn't even close to everything Condoleezza has done in her incredible career.

Katie Couric: Delta Delta Delta, University of Virginia
-American journalist and author
-Yahoo Global News anchor
-Hosted on all "Big Three" television networks in the U.S.(NBC, CBS, ABC)
-Co-host of The Today Show
-Anchor on CBS Evening News
-Correspondent for 60 Minutes
-New York Times' Best Selling Author (The Best Advice I Ever God: Lessons From Extraordinary Lives)
-Inducted into Television Hall of Fame

Kate Spade: Kappa Kappa Gamma, Arizona State University
-Co-founder and namesake of Kate Spade New York
-Council of Fashion Designers of America's "America's New Fashion Talent in Accessories," 1996
-I'm just going to leave part of her bio here to explain the rest. She is a creative genius.
-"Spade launched her New York-based design company "kate spade handbags" in January 1993. As the name implies, they initially started out selling mainly handbags, but eventually extended to include stationery, personal organizers, address books, shoes, beauty products, perfume, raincoats, pajamas, and eyewear. In 1996 Kate Spade opened its first boutique, a 400-square-foot shop located in Manhattan's trendy SoHo district, and moved its headquarters into a 10,000-square-foot space in West 25th Street. In 2004, "kate spade at home" was launched as a home collection brand. It features bedding, bath items, china, wallpaper and various items for the home."

Hoda Kotb: Delta Delta Delta, Virginia Tech
-News anchor and TV host
-Today Show co-host
-Daytime Emmy Award winner, 2010
-Dateline NBC correspondent
-Virginia Tech Alumni Association Board of Directors, 2010
-New York Times' Bestselling Author (Hoda: How I Survived War Zones, Bad Hair, Cancer, and Kathie Lee
-Breast cancer survivor

Carrie Underwood: Sigma Sigma Sigma, Northeastern State University
-American Idol winner, fourth season, 2005
-Member of Grand Ole Opry, 2008
-Oklahoma Music Hall of Fame, 2009
-Seven Grammy Awards
-Seventeen Billboard Music Awards
-Eleven Acadamy of Country Music Awards
-Eight American Music Awards
-Nominee, Golden Globe Award for Best Original Song
-Rolling Stone's "Female Vocalist of Her Generation"
-Debut album, Some Heats: fastest selling debut country album in Neilsen SoundScan history, the best-selling solo female debut album in country music history and the best-selling country album of the last ten years
-Over 65 million records sold globally
-Top Country Artist of all time on the RIAA's Digital Singles ranking
-Biggest American Idol earner of all time
-Female artist with the most No.1 hits on the Billboard Hot Country Songs chart, from 1991 to present
-One of Time Magazine's "100 Most Influential People"


These are only a few of the many powerful, successful, influential, brilliant women who were members of sororities during their college years. Sororities should be celebrated.

There will never be a group of people that is perfect. There are sorority chapters that fail to attain the level of class and dignity that sororities should have. There will always be members of every type of group on this planet that misrepresent their group. But what good does it do to falsely stereotype every single member for the acts of a few? Any time you find yourself generalizing an entire group of people, you're most likely wrong. Whether it's political parties, college groups, schools, genders, ethnicities, classes, religions, etc... People are individuals. They make their own choices and live their own lives.

The heart of Greek life is service and community. Sororities donate time, money, resources, and materials to philanthropies ranging from childhood literacy to domestic violence. They connect groups of women to encourage friendship and support. Along the way, some have lost sight of these values, but that does not mean we leave them behind. Instead, those of us who hold to these values should be lifting up our sisters and encouraging them to reevaluate their situation and return to the heart of the matter.

So, Greek girls- whether you're a Zeta, Chi O, ADPi, Kappa, Tri Delt, or in a non-PanHellenic sorority (shoutout KXA), stand tall. Hold to the values. Be proud.

You are incredible. You are unique. You are magnificent. You are a world-changer. You're the next Condoleezza Rice, or Carrie Underwood. You will change the face of politics, television, fashion, and music. You will influence other women to go above and beyond their wildest dreams. You have immense responsibility in your hands to publicly defy the nasty stereotypes placed on sorority girls. You are not these stereotypes. You are human. You are worthy of love. 

As my girl Hannah Montana says- "I'm unusual, not so typical, way too smart to be waiting around! Tai chi-practicing snowboard champion; I can fix the flat on your car... I might even be a rockstar!!!" (Killin' it, Hannah)

"From the outside looking in, you can never understand it. From the inside looking out, you can never explain it."

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Precious Sons...

My precious son [your name here],

I know that you are struggling, and this is why you feel that I am not with you. You look around at your situation, and you let everything around you overwhelm you, so that you cannot see Me. The truth, though, is that I am still here. I am as close as ever, sitting next to you in class and at work, riding in your car, enjoying good times with your friends, and pursuing daily goals. Even if those things disappear, I am here, precious son, I am always here. There’s a song by Audio Adrenaline that talks about my devotion to you: “I’d leave 99, leave them all behind, to find you… for you alone,” so take heart, because nothing can separate us.

I know that sometimes your fears far outweigh your peace. You fear failure, rejection, and a long list of other possibilities. Son, I know that you have experienced pain. I know that some of your fears have become reality at different points. But this does not define you; it is not who you are. You are worthy of love. You are kind, gentle, joyful, intuitive, and brave. You sometimes think that smiling and laughing easily is a fault, that it makes you look silly or odd, but it’s how I made you. Your joy spreads to others; never be afraid to be joyful and to express your feelings. You have overcome many challenges, and you seek a deeper meaning than surface level in whatever you commit to. Those things bring wisdom.

Son, never be afraid to be fully yourself and fully human. There is nothing wrong with that. Stop thinking that everyone will hate you for being you. Do not turn off part of yourself because it is not "manly." I created you, and My creation is beautiful, and it deserves to be treated as such. Treat yourself with the kindness and respect that you offer to others. Do not hide away for fear of judgment. I did not create you simply for physical appearance- My plans are much more extravagant than that. I have brought you to where you are, and I would not bring you somewhere that would harm you. Trust Me, dearest son. I’m so sorry this world has lied to you and left you feeling this way. I’m so sorry you feel vulnerable, unworthy, and forgotten. I need you now, though, to rise from that. I need you to be strong like I know you can be. I need you to speak up for yourself instead of shying away. Make your voice heard, because I have called you to a great plan, and I have made you a leader. I have made you for great things… Things you can’t even imagine. Do not forget that I finish what I start.

Overall, remember that I am with you always, to the end of the age. I love you extravagantly, abundantly, and wholly. I see you, I know you, and I delight in you. You make me proud, joyful, and eager for what is to come. I am so amazed by the way you persevere and the way you love others. In your darkest moments—through every moment--I have been right beside you, holding you. We have sat silently on your bed while you unsuccessfully willed tears away, and we have boasted laughter and excitement when you succeed. I have felt your heart break, and it breaks Mine, too. I am working it back together again, but it just takes time, because you have so much to learn about Me and My love for you. I need you to trust Me enough to let go. I promise I will not leave you. I cannot promise you that bad things will never happen again, but I do promise you that I am right there through it all, that you are always held, always seen, and always loved.

I cherish you, son, I call you “friend.” I delight in you. Dearest son, hold on- fear not. My love will never leave you. You could never do anything that would change the absolute joy I find in you. I know that you will make mistakes, sometimes bigger than what you can fix, and I know you have regrets. Lay them on me, all of your burdens, and let me take them. Let me make you new again. My grace is abounding, never running out, and I want to give it to you.
 
Find your success and worth in me, not in the world. It will never matter if you meet their expectations or not. Look to Me, seek My face, and stay focused on what I have for you. You can never disappoint Me, because I have seen your entire life before time began… And still I love you- extravagantly, abundantly, wholly. I am all things: mother and father, sister and brother, friend, counselor, king… My list goes on to cover the entire universe. I am everything you need.

Love, Abba

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Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope it has spoken to your heart, and that you feel the overwhelming love of Jesus all around you. Please save a copy of this letter, with your name inserted wherever you'd like, and keep it to read when you need to. Let these words speak truth over your life and your heart. You are wonderful. I would love to know how this letter has impacted you. You can leave a comment or contact me via Facebook or email.

I want to leave you with this playlist that I think goes nicely with this letter.

  1. Leaving 99- Audio Adrenaline
  2. You're not Alone- Meredith Andrews
  3. You are For Me- Kari Jobe
  4. Hold Me Jesus- Rich Mullins
  5. How He Loves- David Crowder
  6. Come As You Are- Crowder
  7. Let It Be Jesus- Chris Tomlin
  8. Jesus Loves Me- Christ Tomlin
  9. Holy Spirit- Francesca Battistelli
  10. Shoulders- For King & Country
  11. Strong Enough- Stacie Orrico



-Thanks for reading! You can continue to follow my journey here. Prayers are always appreciated. Feel free to send me a prayer or some encouragement, too! Kelsey_Phipps@baylor.edu
 
 
"You can be sure that God will take care of everything you need, His generosity exceeding even yours in the glory that pours from Christ Jesus. Our God and Father abounds in glory that just pours out into eternity. Yes." -Philippians 4:19-20

Dearest daughters...

My dearest daughter [your name here],

I know that you are struggling, and this is why you feel that I am not with you. You look around at your situation, and you let everything around you overwhelm you, so that you cannot see Me. The truth, darling, is that I am still here. I am as close as ever, sitting next to you in class and at work, riding in your car, enjoying good times with your friends, and pursuing daily goals. Even if those things disappear, I am here, sweet girl, I am always here. There’s a song by Audio Adrenaline that talks about my devotion to you: “I’d leave 99, leave them all behind, to find you… for you alone,” so take heart, dear, because nothing can separate us.

I know that sometimes your fears far outweigh your peace. You fear failure, rejection, and a long list of other possibilities. Daughter, I know that you have experienced pain. I know that some of your fears have become reality at different points. But this does not define you; it is not who you are. You are worthy of love. You are kind, gentle, joyful, intuitive, and brave. You sometimes think that smiling and laughing easily is a fault, that it makes you look silly or odd, but it’s how I made you. Your joy spreads to others; never be afraid to be joyful and to express your feelings. You have overcome many challenges, and you seek a deeper meaning than surface level in whatever you commit to. Those things bring wisdom.

Daughter, never be afraid to be yourself. There is nothing wrong with that. Stop thinking that everyone will hate you for being you. I created you, and My creation is beautiful, and it deserves to be treated as such. Treat yourself with the kindness and respect that you offer to others. Do not hide away for fear of judgment. I did not create you simply for physical beauty- My plans are much more extravagant than that. I have brought you to where you are, and I would not bring you somewhere that would harm you. Trust Me, sweet girl. I’m so sorry this world has lied to you and left you feeling this way. I’m so sorry you feel vulnerable, unworthy, and forgotten. I need you now, though, to rise from that. I need you to be strong like I know you can be. I need you to speak up for yourself instead of shying away. Make your voice heard, because I have called you to a great plan, and I have made you a leader. I have made you for great things… Things you can’t even imagine. Do not forget that I finish what I start.

Overall, darling, remember that I am with you always, to the end of the age. I love you extravagantly, abundantly, and wholly. I see you, I know you, and I delight in you. You make me proud, joyful, and eager for what is to come. I am so amazed by the way you persevere and the way you love others. In your darkest moments—through every moment--I have been right beside you, holding you. We have laid on the bathroom floor while you cried, and we have danced around your room while you laughed and sang. I have felt your heart break, and it breaks Mine, too. I am working it back together again, but it just takes time, because you have so much to learn about Me and My love for you. I need you to trust Me enough to let go. I promise I will not leave you. I cannot promise you that bad things will never happen again, but I do promise you that I am right there through it all, that you are always held, always seen, and always loved.

I cherish you, daughter, I call you “friend.” I delight in you. Precious daughter, hold on- fear not. My love will never leave you. You could never do anything that would change the absolute joy I find in you. I know that you will make mistakes, sometimes bigger than what you can fix, and I know you have regrets. Lay them on me, all of your burdens, and let me take them. Let me make you new again. My grace is abounding, never running out, and I want to give it to you.
 
Find your beauty and worth in me, not in the world. It will never matter if you meet their expectations or not. Look to Me, seek My face, and stay focused on what I have for you. You can never disappoint Me, because I have seen your entire life before time began… And still I love you- extravagantly, abundantly, wholly. I am all things: mother and father, sister and brother, friend, counselor, king… My list goes on to cover the entire universe. I am everything you need.

Love, Abba

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Thank you, precious girl, for taking the time to read this. I hope it has spoken to your heart, and that you feel the overwhelming love of Jesus all around you. Please save a copy of this letter, with your name inserted wherever you'd like, and keep it to read when you need to. Let these words speak truth over your life and your heart. You are wonderful. I would love to know how this letter has impacted you. You can leave a comment or contact me via Facebook or email.

I want to leave you with this playlist that I think goes nicely with this letter.

  1. Leaving 99- Audio Adrenaline
  2. You're not Alone- Meredith Andrews
  3. You are For Me- Kari Jobe
  4. Hold Me Jesus- Rich Mullins
  5. How He Loves- David Crowder
  6. Come As You Are- Crowder
  7. Let It Be Jesus- Chris Tomlin
  8. Jesus Loves Me- Christ Tomlin
  9. Holy Spirit- Francesca Battistelli
  10. Shoulders- For King & Country
  11. Strong Enough- Stacie Orrico



-Thanks for reading! You can continue to follow my journey here. Prayers are always appreciated. Feel free to send me a prayer or some encouragement, too! Kelsey_Phipps@baylor.edu
 
 
"You can be sure that God will take care of everything you need, His generosity exceeding even yours in the glory that pours from Christ Jesus. Our God and Father abounds in glory that just pours out into eternity. Yes." -Philippians 4:19-20